kiz arkadasimin aklini aldim beyler capsli

cakmak icin yazdigim bi kizla yanlislikla sevgili oldum amk.. bide bakireyim dedi vermiyor.. zaten ayrilmaya yol yapiyorum bi yandan da uzulmesin istiyorum. bi yandan da yemek memek yapiyor arada hemen de bitmesin istiyorum amk.. ne istedigimi tam bilmiyorum aslinda da ayrilacam yani..

neyse bugun biraz soguk davrandim amk sonra aramizda su konusma gecti.. bi bulamac yaptim sonunda bisey diyemedi amk:)
malesef ingilizce panpalar google translate'den anlarsiniz.

Manita [1:11 PM]:
hey
whats going on? :|
u dont know me anymore?

ben [1:51 PM]:
I am just so stressed
I dont want to make you stressed too with my work related things
:S

manita [1:53 PM]:
but u can say a hello to me if u consider us being a couple.. and why dont u want to tell me what is happening to u? why I am for u?
u r stressing me with this attitude more than with your work related issues..

ben [1:54 PM]:
I know
I know that too

manita [1:55 PM]:
If u dont need this relationship let me know as Im too a part of it

ben [1:56 PM]:
See the only time I can make you happy
is when my mind is peacefull and not thinking about much things
and it doesnt happen at work.. I simply am not able to focus on other things
although I like you A LOT
and we're having this relationship
mostly here
this is the problem

manita [1:57 PM]:
and why?

ben [1:57 PM]:
I know we can do things after work

manita [1:57 PM]:
why dont u have time for me after work?

ben [1:57 PM]:
but we didnt have time
I didnt have time to change my lifestyle accordingly
and I am getting so much exhausted at work that

manita [1:57 PM]:
but r u planning to?

ben [1:58 PM]:
If I didnt promise anything to anyone only thing I care is sleeping
because its the only way I dont think about anything

manita PM]:
I dont expect much at work from u

manita PM]:
a smile is enough, or a hug

ben [1:59 PM]:
sdasd

manita [1:59 PM]:
enough until 18:00

ben[1:59 PM]:
MY ENTER WAS NOT WORKING
ok now
so with this conditions
I am getting even more stress
because I care
not to make you unhappy
and when I cannot spare time for you
I have even more thoughts in my mind
and I feel like I am going to explode
especially through the end of the week
I am just
not able to carry
not that strong may be I dont know
If I come to you here
I am stressed if because in my mind there is always work
I dont want to
make you think that I am not paying attention to you
I dont want to fake that I think about you too
I am retarded
I am not even talking about other things that I feel guilty
the only thing I know is
I like you
I like you a lot
and when I am healthy with my thoughts
I enjoy it a lot

manita [2:07 PM]:
I like you too *

ben [2:07 PM]:
:) canim

devam etmiyim dimi lan bunla vermiyo etmiyo amk?